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Wednesday, June 21, 2006

I joined Weight Watchers last week.

Again.

I am not doing too well. I cannot figure out my compulsion to eat crap. I cannot eat enough sweet things. I eat when I'm not even hungry. Seriously, someone should stick me in a cell and feed me healthy food.

I remember joining Weight Watchers in high school with my mom and one of my sisters. Back then, the meetings made me very uncomfortable because if you gained weight that week, they would talk about it in front of everybody and make you feel like an ass. Some of the advisors had never even been on the program, and had never had weight issues. The most difficult thing for me though was trying to weigh and measure every bite I put in my mouth. I was in school for Pete's sake! I didn't have a fridge or a microwave or time to weigh and measure everything.

I wish I could have found something back then that worked for me, I might have lost the 20 pounds I needed to lose and been a lot healthier today. Now, I am faced with having to lose 100 pounds, or more, and I don't even know how to get started. I eyeball the instrument of doom sitting in my bedroom, covered in clothing, and berate myself for not just getting on the thing and doing it. JUST DO IT ALREADY!!

I am getting to the point where I am scared of the path I am headed down - and yet I still do nothing! What has to happen before I will finally do the right thing? I would have thought getting married would have spurned me on towards weight loss. Who wants to be a fat bride? I lost 15 pounds quite easily, then stopped because I was afraid of not fitting into my dress. I lost 15 pounds again just before I found out I was pregnant with new baby. Now, I know I need to work to not lose any more ground and try to keep my weight from climbing further, but what do I do?

Am actually think that there must be some kind of magic pill, or something that will help me lose weight. I think the amount of hard work ahead has me so depressed that I'm not willing to acknowledge it.

I have been entering everything into my "points" journal, and I am past my daily allowance of 22 points by breakfast almost every day.

HELP!!!

4 Comments:

  • First: Quit beating yourself up. Remind yourself that America is rediscovering its love affair with Voluptuons. (I never lost it!)

    Second: Grocery shop with LP and buy healthy stuff together. A hint - packages of those prepeeled baby carrots. When you're munchy or hungry, stuff a handful into your mouth. They're sweet and crunchy and they fill you up and they're healthy.

    Third: take a walk with the hubby and kids several times a week. The family will bond, and it's one of the best exercises there is.

    Fourth: NEVER look at Glamour, Vogue, Playboy, or People. None of us normal folk are ever gonna be rich enough to pay to look like that. Who needs the depressing competition?

    Fifth (and most important): Love yourself. LP does. The little men do. And we do. Guilt, anxiety, and worry are counterproductive. Bang your hubby like a wildcat for an ego boost. Trust me, this cannot hurt. If all it does is make you both feel good, great.

    Sixth: If you find anything else, let me know. I could lose about 40-50 pounds myself.

    By Blogger Kingfisher, at 8:39 PM  

  • {posting again just in case, 'cuz blogger is on crack}

    First: Quit beating yourself up. Remind yourself that America is rediscovering its love affair with Voluptuons. (I never lost it!)

    Second: Grocery shop with LP and buy healthy stuff together. A hint - packages of those prepeeled baby carrots. When you're munchy or hungry, stuff a handful into your mouth. They're sweet and crunchy and they fill you up and they're healthy.

    Third: take a walk with the hubby and kids several times a week. The family will bond, and it's one of the best exercises there is.

    Fourth: NEVER look at Glamour, Vogue, Playboy, or People. None of us normal folk are ever gonna be rich enough to pay to look like that. Who needs the depressing competition?

    Fifth (and most important): Love yourself. LP does. The little men do. And we do. Guilt, anxiety, and worry are counterproductive. Bang your hubby like a wildcat for an ego boost. Trust me, this cannot hurt. If all it does is make you both feel good, great.

    Sixth: If you find anything else, let me know. I could lose about 40-50 pounds myself.

    By Blogger Kingfisher, at 8:47 PM  

  • i feel your pain. I could lose 15kg (no idea what that is in pounds) but don't have the willpower (or won't power) to not eat those hot chips or that packet of lollies.

    I am in denial enough to not want to join Weight Watchers

    If you find a magic pill, please let me know.

    Oh, and btw - a Cheeseburger Happy Meal is worth 35 points! That's a day and a HALF!!!!

    Good Luck! At least you can actually admit it and have the guts (sorry, bad pun) to join WW. It's a start!!

    By Blogger Squishi, at 4:43 AM  

  • I've been back and forth with my weight forever now it would seem. Since my divorce five years ago I've easily gained 60 pounds. NOT.GOOD. Recently I decided I was done with that. I was done eating junk in front of the tv every night. I was done stuffing my face until I was sleepy. I was done looking in the mirror and being shocked that I look like this. I didn't join any group, I'm not much into group therapy for any reason. I just started policing myself. I got the junk out of the house. I pack breakfast and lunch and eat them at work. I remind myself that every snack I eat will make the scale go up and going up is not an option anymore. It's not easy, I dont mean to make it sound like it is, but it's a mental change before it's a physical change. Find someone that's losing weight that you can buddy up with and talk to (I'm here!) And find happiness in little things like the change you notice after losing just 5 pounds. The big picture will overwhelm you, break it down and relish every small achievement. You can do this!!

    By Blogger Amy, at 6:13 AM  

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